"Jealousy

Turning saints into the sea."

Um dos vários males que aflige meu s2 é o ciúme.
Sofro por não me sentir a única. Sofro por babaquice. Sofro porque me torturo. Sofro porque me sinto idiota. Sofro porque sei que não deveria sentir nada disso. Sofro por me sentir neurótica e imbecil. Sofro porque tenho medo. Sofro por achar que não tenho direito de sentir ciúme. Sofro por desejar com intensidade excessiva ser a única, pra sempre, mesmo sabendo que isso é impossível e não recomendável.

Dose de melancolia

Eu vivo em busca de clareza, de certezas. Eu prezo pela verdade dita com todas as letras. Mas ocasionalmente isso significa chegar um ponto em que eu me canso de dar murro em ponta de faca e me deprimo sozinha. Eu não vejo porque dividir isso com a única pessoa que eu ainda tenho.

"Dar murro em ponta de faca."
Depois que entendi o que significava, gostei tanto dessa expressão. Descreve quase todas as minhas tentativas de relacionamento com as pessoas. E não me refiro apenas a relacionamentos românticos, mas a todos a quem amei e quis oferecer minha devoção e simplesmente não quiseram.

Dói.

Eu consigo amar quase incondicionalmente. Só que, aparentemente, isso faz muito mais mal do que bem.

Coisas brilhantes

Pandora: Eu só estive com ele por 3 dias. Thomas. Agora ele se foi.
Anthea: Mas foi divertido enquanto durou, não? Tão divertido.
Pandora: Sim, chama-se amor.
Anthea: Essa é uma palavra grande.
Pandora: Não sei. Quatro letras são... Ah. Mas tenho certeza que é amor. Tudo o que você quer fazer é beijá-lo e... sabe... outras coisas. Coisas brilhantes.
A: É... coisas brilhantes.

- Skins, 3x04

Coldplay - Fix you

When you try your best, but you don't succeed,
When you get what you want, but not what you need,
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try, to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try, you'll never know
Just what you're worth.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try, to fix you.

Tears stream down your face,
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you...

Depeche Mode - I want it all

[...]

Sometimes I try

Sometimes I lie, with you

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I die, it's true

Somewhere I find

Something that's kind

And I've crossed the line again

A line I drew in sand

Still you give me everything

And everything's not enough

I'm ready but not willing

To give myself to you

Sometimes

Sometimes I try

Sometimes I lie, with you

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I die, it's true

Somewhere I find

Something that's kind

Come on over

Lay down beside me

And I'll try

Come on over

Lay down beside me

And I'll try

And I'll try

I want it all.
-

Sometimes your everything's not enough. But I'll try, I'll try, I'll try, I'm trying.

Dave Matthews Band - The stone

I've this creeping

Suspicion that things here are not as they seem

Oh, reassure me

Why do I feel as if im in too deep?

Now I've been praying

For some way to show them I'm not what they see

Yes, I have done wrong

But what I did I thought needed be done

I swear

Oh, unholy day

If I leave now I might get away

Oh, but this weighs on me

As heavy as stone and as blue as I go

I was just wondering if you'd come along

To hold up my head when my head wont hold on

I'll do the same if the sames what you want

But if not I'll go

I will go alone

I'm a long way

From that fools mistake

And now forever pay

No, run, I will run and I'll be ok

I was just wondering if you'd come along

Hold up my head when my head wont hold on

I'll do the same if the sames what you want

But if not I'll go

I will go alone

I go a long way

To bury the past for I dont want to pay

Oh, how I wish this

To turn back the clock and do over again

I was just wondering if youd come along

Hold up my head when my head wont hold on

I'll do the same if the sames what you want

But if not I'll go

I will go alone

I need so

To stay in your arms, see your smile, hold you close

And it weighs on me

As heavy as stone and a bone chilling cold

I was just wondering if youd come along

Tell me you will...

Moby - One time we lived

One time we lived
Like the time would never leave
What time we had
The luxury to breathe
I couldn’t see an end
There was no end in sight
Time has risen up time has pulled us down
Bringing darkness to the light

I remember the way you looked
The sun had set
The lights were down
I remember the light in your eyes
Do you remember at all?
Do you remember at all?

Isn’t that what we wanted?
Isn’t that what we wanted?
Isn’t that what we had?
Do we know what we need?
Now that it’s gone
Isn’t that what we wanted?
Isn’t that what we wanted?
Isn’t that what we had?
Do we know what we need?

One time we lived
Like the time would never end
And now it breaks
Those left alone again
And while the waters course
By the old and pale light
See just what I’ve lost
And die into the night

I remember the way you looked
The sun had set
The lights were down
I remember the light in your eyes
Do you remember at all?
Do you remember at all?

Isn’t that what we wanted?
Isn’t that what we wanted?
Isn’t that what we had?
Do we know what we need?
Now that it’s gone

Isn’t that what we wanted?
Isn’t that what we wanted?
Isn’t that what we had?
Do we know what we need?
Now that it’s gone

Florence and the machine - I'm not calling you a liar

I'm not calling you a liar, just don't lie to me
I'm not calling you a thief, just don't steal from me
I'm not calling you a ghost, just stop haunting me
And I love you so much, I'm gonna let you kill me

There's a ghost in my lungs and it sighs in my sleep
Wraps itself around my tounge as it softly speaks
Then it walks, then it walks with my legs
To fall, to fall, to fall at your feet

There but for the grace of God go I
And when you kiss me, I am happy enough to die

I'm not calling you a liar, just don't lie to me
And I love you so much, I'm gonna let you
I'm not calling you a thief, just don't
And I love you so much, I'm gonna let you
I'm not calling you a ghost, just stop

There's a ghost in my mouth and it talks in my sleep
Wraps itself around my tongue as it softly speaks
Then it walks. then it walks, then it walks with my legs
To fall, to fall, to fall, to fall
To fall, to fall

To fall, to fall, to fall, to fall,
to fall, to fall, at your feet

There but for the grace of God go I
And when you kiss me, I am happy enough

Radiohead - All I need

I'm the next act waiting in the wings
I'm an animal trapped in your hot car
I am all the days that you choose to ignore

You're all I need
You're all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

I am a moth who just wants to share your light
I'm just an insect trying to get out of the night
I only stick with you because there are no others

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

S'all wrong
S'alright
S'all wrong
S'alright
S'alright
S'alright

Depeche Mode - Little 15

Little 15
You help her forget
The world outside
You're not part of it yet
And if you could drive
You could drive her away
To a happier place
To a happier day
That exists in your mind
And in your smile
She could escape there
Just for a while
Little 15

Little 15
Why take the smooth with the rough
When things run smooth
It's already more than enough
She knows your mind
Is not yet in league
With the rest of the world
And its little intrigues
Do you understand
Do you know what she means
As time goes by
And when you've seen what she's seen
You will
Little 15

Little 15
Why does she have to defend
Her feelings inside
Why pretend
She's not had a life
A life of near misses
Now all that she wants
Is 3 little wishes
She wants to see with your eyes
She wants to smile with your smile
She wants a nice surprise
Every once in a while
Little 15

Guns N' Roses - November rain

"When I look into your eyes

I can see a love restrained

But darling when I hold you

Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothing lasts forever

And we both know hearts can change

And it's hard to hold a candle

In the cold november rain

We've been through this such a long, long time

Just trying to kill the pain, oh yeah

But lovers always come

And lovers always go

An no one's really sure

Who's letting go today walking away

If I cold take the time

To lay it on the line

I could rest my head

Just knowing that you were mine, all mine

So if you want to love me

Then darling don't refrain

Or I'll just end up walking

In the cold november rain..."

"Porquoi? C'est que mon coeur au milieu des délices
D'un souvenir jaloux constamment oppressé,
Froid au bonheur présent, va chercher ses supplices
Dans l'avenir et le passé?"
- Alexandre Dumas

Coldplay - Life is for living

Now I never meant,

To do you wrong,

That’s what I came here to say.

But if I was wrong,

Then I’m sorry,

I don’t let it stand in our way.

As my head just aches,

When I think of,

The things that I shouldn’t have done.

But, life is for living,

We all know,

And I don’t wanna live it alone.

Sing,

Ah, ah, oh,

And just think,

Ah, ah, oh.

Beatles - Long, long, long

It’s been a long long long time,
How could I ever have lost you,
When I loved you.
It took a long long long time,
Now I’m so happy I found you,
How I love you.
So many tears I was searching,
So many tears I was wasting,
Oh Oh now I can see you, be you,
How can I ever misplace you.
How I want you,
Oh I love you,
You know that I need you,
Ooh I love you.

Counting Crows - Angels of the Silences

"I'll only stand here
Waiting for you
All my sins, I said that I would pay for them if I could come back to you."



E eu os pago sorrindo ♥