wishful trying

i wish i could write you a song
louder than a siren
peaceful as buddhist bells
and as sweet as yourself

i wish i could write you a letter
and you would feel so warm as my heart feels
since i met you

i wish every word
would melt every hardness
that may still coexist
with this love we are sharing

i wish i could paint you a painting
as wonderful as our visions
as colorful as mother nature
as beautiful and soulful as you

i wish i could make me better
everyday
to make you feel happier
and grateful to be by my side
but i know you're not mine

i wish i could be the best poet
and i wish i could be the best person
and i wish i could give you everything
from now to the last breath

and i wish i was brave enough to show you this
without being afraid of not receiving a compliment
i wish i could only give and stop dreaming about ghosts made of fears
ghosts fed with shameful tears
but i don't know if i can
i don't know if i can

but i'll try
my hardest
'cause you don't deserve any less.